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I like to use Eric Thomas “The Hip Hop Preacher” as motivation from time to time and I happened to see this video the other day and didn’t have a reason to really post it. Actually, I did, but I wanted to save it for this post here. Because he says something that is really applicable to what I am thinking and what the mindset is RIGHT NOW. He says this:

“Success is never on discount. Greatness is never on sale. Greatness is never half off. Its all or nothing.”

It hits home because this is a New Years thing and we always set such big goals on New Years, but soon enough we start to hedge and start to flirt and start to look for a little opening to put the plan on pause or hold out for doing something or take it easy. But what we want, is expensive.

Not money expensive, but expensive by sacrifice.

I’m not going to lie to you, I have a ways to go, but I am also giving up a lot of shit because I’ve just decided what its worth to me.

This is my theme song for 2014….

I’m going to miss the cigarettes, I’m going to miss the adult beverages (*), I’m going to miss a particular female, I’m going to miss the late nights and the craziness that has become my life on some levels, but all of those things are what got me here. And hopefully, me making myself better will benefit some of those things that I am giving up.

I will admit, that I am scared about it. I hope that the six months that I take or the 4 months that I take or the year that I take to get right doesn’t cost me something that I have worked for (I’m talking about that particular female by the way (among other things)) but what I will become will be that much greater.

Eric said something in another video a long time ago:

“You can’t be afraid to, at any moment, sacrifice what you are, for what you will become.”

That’s the killer right there, but that is where you have to just close your eyes and put your head down and figure it out. I hope I can figure it out. I’ve laid the groundwork out with this site and with all the books I’ve purchased and all the tough talk that I have given – but that was on purpose – because I want the people around me to see the change and hold me accountable.

The accountability doesn’t even have to be something that is verbalized, but everyone that means something to me, knows that this is a struggle and even if they don’t say anything, I will know, that they know, if I am fucking up… if that makes sense.

But, right now, in this moment, its got me thinking…. One year from now (and hopefully earlier actually), I will be as right as I have ever been.

– Random S.

(*) After writing all of this, I just realized that there is a wedding this weekend and a 2 week trip halfway across the world that I’d planned months ago that I am going to have to take it eeeeeasy at.

Lesbionest. I know I’m not going to be totally clean for those two events, but I promise to be a lot better than I would have been in the past.